October 26, 2021

The one thing that ruins beauty is self-awareness. Once someone becomes aware of their beauty it deteriorates.

Everything eventually deteriorates until it becomes nothing.

Until art becomes scrap
Building becomes rubble
And eventually the cycle repeats where the scrap becomes the art and the rubble creates buildings.

The dirt creates bodies.

That nothingness that we overlook creates all things.

All things creates space for that nothingness to be and that nothingness gives birth to its existence.

People think because they got on this boat called "Religion" then somehow they are saved.
When it is thru Christ and Christ alone that every believer obtains salvation.
The very boat that people believe makes them "saved" or safe is also the very boat that Chirst Jesus condemned.

Jesus called them snakes and hypocrites, and if you was among them then you would be the same.

We don't differentiate ourselves by claiming Christ but by living in obedience to him.

“Not everyone who says to me, ‘Lord, Lord,’ will enter the kingdom of heaven, but only the one who does the will of my Father who is in heaven.” – Matthew 7:12

Oct. 23, 2021

Religiousness is not the same as Godliness.

Their are folks who are ungodly and wicked but highly religious.

Also folks who are godly and holy but aren't participants in religious traditions.

Don't assume one to be same, God shall not be mocked and he cannot be fooled.

I never understood how black folks would get offended by racism then discriminate against each other. You are a hypocrite!

I am not pro-black, I am pro-Christ who is the protagonist and anyone against him is an antagonist, regardless of race.

Oct. 20, 2021

Without the presumption of innocence, there is a willingness to be ignorant.

“Wisdom is the principal thing; therefore get wisdom: and with all thy getting get understanding.” – Proverbs 4:7

As the Bible says we perish for a lack of understanding.

“My people are destroyed for lack of knowledge;…” – Hosea 4:6

Have we forgotten the principle things of God?

You’re not supposed to out live the relationship you have, but you should out grow them as you grow. Meanful relationships evolve as you evolve.

You’ll grow or die.

Oct. 18, 2021

Just move in faith and God will handle the rest.

I am not a slave to my desires.

I claim victory over my flesh.

People will use that wore out excuse of “I did know!” just so they can remain indifferent.

The belief is that if we live in these social boxes then we are safe, but the truth is that we are never safe, we are constantly on stand-by for whatever “they” want to do with our lives.

If we somehow manage to climb out the social rathole of being in poverty or barely making it, what about the ones we love.

There’s nothing sustainable outside of truth.

God is true, love is true.

Everything outside of God will change.

I’ve been thinking about how I’ve been wanting to stop working on Grubhub to focus back on my YouTube channel and writing more. Devoting myself to the things that actually matters to me and is creatively challenging and purpose oriented.

I also been wanting to move out my grandmother’s house so I can have the peace of mind of having my own space.

I’m not in a bad place in my life right now, I am just not fulfilled. I dislike not feeling that gave this day everything I could. I don’t want to feel like I’m just getting by.

Nobody and nothing can complete you like God can. You can spend your life looking for someone that was made for you or spend time with the one you was made for.

I know I need to be patient and wait on God’s timing for my life. It’s hard to know what this life would be like without and orientation to God.

Oct. 13, 2021

The place from which we find the most pain is the same place from which we desire the most pleasure.

Freedom for me is when I don’t desire to find pleasure in the flesh. To know that which sustains life beyond my body, a spirit that keeps me alive.

I feel the most free when I am at peace when I am alone.

It was the will of God for man to subdue the flesh. It is the will of man to be whole, one and complete within ourselves, that is our truest reflection of God.

God is a one, a man who is one is God. To be one with God is to be known by him and you to know him. Silence the mind, open the heart and listen. God speaks to the quiet mind.

God speaks to those who know him. God listen to those who know him. God aids those who acknowledge him.

I of myself know nothing, I have no knowledge.  I am lacking wisdom of heart, my mind is weary in meanless work. This life that is not even mines, I live sore.

Where God in the valley,

where’s the light in a cave

Where’s peace in unity

Poor folks asking me for money, only to remind me that I’m serving a cruel master, money. This enitiy that’s not distributed equally so that few can escape being enslaved  to the production of it. They spend the dollars we labor, we don’t own our money. We buy products to say is ours. If a company can distribute products equally nationwide, why can’t they do the same with money?

The biggest scam is that we are convinced that our money is worth something, it is absolutely worthless. The dollar has no value, over time it’s becoming worthless and we can never have enough.

How to survive in a society where you are constantly in debt? When you can’t pay the rent? Can’t afford to pay for your existence, having time to yourself is expensive. 

You can’t afford to be alone. You pay attention to everyone and everything else but yourself. You don’t even notice you, working mindlessly until you have no identity, no individuality. As if God took no creativity in making you.

You wake up to borrow time, everything, everyone else owns you. You have deadlines, expectations you have to meet. You sleep and eat as a escape, for a moment, I don’t have to be here. I don’t have to exist empty.

Don’t disturb my avoidance.

Don’t empty my trash, I feel less alone in clutter and junk. My stuff keeps me company.

I will never tell you my problems, I would never tell you my issues.

No love letters to write I miss you. I don’t want my mind to wander away from you because I don’t want to lost you. Thoughts of you to keep you near, so I can be glad when you are not here.

I can’t be truthful without being controversial,  I can’t reason with myself. 

Can you stand on God’s word? – 9:00PM

Can you stand naked before God?

Death is to be disconnected from God. When God cuts you off, you die.

No greater poverty than to be disconnected from you heaven father.

Let’s hold hands so that even though we are apart we are still connected

Lies and dishonesty creates disharmony with the God in me.

I been alone for so long that the wild parts of me have grown and I can’t change it to conform to this modern society.

A crackhead trying to adapt to modern society is like a alien trying to be human.

I think we all hunger and thirst for truth.

From my weakness, I find my greatest strengths and build them. My vulnerable is my superpower. In my authenticity I find my strengths.

I realize that certain women’s anger come from being unheard.

Who can build a mirror from broken glass and get a perfect reflection? We are all imperfect versions of who God created us to be.

People be like, “you worked hard for that Dr. In your name” but at the same time, you also paid for it. If I gave 100,000 free tuition, they’ll be alot more doctors in the world.