Oct. 13, 2021

The place from which we find the most pain is the same place from which we desire the most pleasure.

Freedom for me is when I don’t desire to find pleasure in the flesh. To know that which sustains life beyond my body, a spirit that keeps me alive.

I feel the most free when I am at peace when I am alone.

It was the will of God for man to subdue the flesh. It is the will of man to be whole, one and complete within ourselves, that is our truest reflection of God.

God is a one, a man who is one is God. To be one with God is to be known by him and you to know him. Silence the mind, open the heart and listen. God speaks to the quiet mind.

God speaks to those who know him. God listen to those who know him. God aids those who acknowledge him.

I of myself know nothing, I have no knowledge.  I am lacking wisdom of heart, my mind is weary in meanless work. This life that is not even mines, I live sore.

Where God in the valley,

where’s the light in a cave

Where’s peace in unity

Poor folks asking me for money, only to remind me that I’m serving a cruel master, money. This enitiy that’s not distributed equally so that few can escape being enslaved  to the production of it. They spend the dollars we labor, we don’t own our money. We buy products to say is ours. If a company can distribute products equally nationwide, why can’t they do the same with money?

The biggest scam is that we are convinced that our money is worth something, it is absolutely worthless. The dollar has no value, over time it’s becoming worthless and we can never have enough.

How to survive in a society where you are constantly in debt? When you can’t pay the rent? Can’t afford to pay for your existence, having time to yourself is expensive. 

You can’t afford to be alone. You pay attention to everyone and everything else but yourself. You don’t even notice you, working mindlessly until you have no identity, no individuality. As if God took no creativity in making you.

You wake up to borrow time, everything, everyone else owns you. You have deadlines, expectations you have to meet. You sleep and eat as a escape, for a moment, I don’t have to be here. I don’t have to exist empty.

Don’t disturb my avoidance.

Don’t empty my trash, I feel less alone in clutter and junk. My stuff keeps me company.

I will never tell you my problems, I would never tell you my issues.

No love letters to write I miss you. I don’t want my mind to wander away from you because I don’t want to lost you. Thoughts of you to keep you near, so I can be glad when you are not here.

I can’t be truthful without being controversial,  I can’t reason with myself. 

Can you stand on God’s word? – 9:00PM

Can you stand naked before God?

Death is to be disconnected from God. When God cuts you off, you die.

No greater poverty than to be disconnected from you heaven father.

Let’s hold hands so that even though we are apart we are still connected

Lies and dishonesty creates disharmony with the God in me.

I been alone for so long that the wild parts of me have grown and I can’t change it to conform to this modern society.

A crackhead trying to adapt to modern society is like a alien trying to be human.

I think we all hunger and thirst for truth.

From my weakness, I find my greatest strengths and build them. My vulnerable is my superpower. In my authenticity I find my strengths.

I realize that certain women’s anger come from being unheard.

Who can build a mirror from broken glass and get a perfect reflection? We are all imperfect versions of who God created us to be.

People be like, “you worked hard for that Dr. In your name” but at the same time, you also paid for it. If I gave 100,000 free tuition, they’ll be alot more doctors in the world.

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